So, it is now 2:07 AM. Yes, I'm still awake. I'm very much a night person. I guess working weekend nights is really starting to mess up my schedule during the week. I do love my job though. I feel wide awake right now, & at 3pm I will feel sooo tired & want to take a nap. I wish I knew something that would help. I've been thinking of trying the new Zzzquil that I've been seeing advertising on tv. What do you guys do when you can't sleep?
Today is September 11th. A day that no one will ever forget. I can still remember exactly where I was sitting when I found out. I was in the 8th grade & sitting in English class. I can remember being very scared & very confused. Please remember to say an extra prayer for the families that lost loved ones on that tragic day. And I would like to extend a BIG thank you to the men & women that protect us & fight for our freedom each & everyday. GOD BLESS.
I feel like I've been in such a rut lately. I feel blah. Like I said, I work on the weekends so I'm home all week ALL day by myself. Its wonderful at times, but miserable other times. I get so bored & tend to stay on the internet shopping wayy too much. Its like an addiction. Shopping makes me feel better. It makes me happy. Just for that moment & when whatever it is comes in the mail. But then, I check my account & want to cry..soo the sadness comes right back to me. So then I want to buy something else to make myself feel better again. Yea, yea, I have a shopping problem. However, it has been 2 weeks now & I haven't purchased more than $50 of "I Want" stuff...I've just bought things that had to be bought or paid for.
I wish I could get myself out of this rut or funk...whatever you wanna call it. I wish I could be disciplined enough to go to bed at at decent time, wake up early, excercise, eat a healthy breakfast, clean, cook, etc. I've tried, but I just can't. I don't know what to do to get myself motivated. I weigh more now then I ever have in my life. I know I need to get it undercontrol now & not wait until it gets any worse. Once again, its a motivation thing. I have none. I don't have but about 30 to 35 pounds that I would like to lose. It sounds like it shouldn't be hard, but getting started is hald the battle. Inspiration & words of encouragement are welcome! =)
I have been pretty good about keeping up with my planner & working in our family binder that I have previously blogged about. I will say that my life is more organized now. I just need to devote some of the time I spend planning to actually DOING.
We really need to paint our kitchen. I just have no idea what color to paint it. Honestly, I'm not a very good interior designer & would rather just point to a picture somewhere & say ok I like that & go from there. We plan on painting it soon, just to make it look a little better. Eventually over some time, we will be replaing the cabinets, countertops, & appliances. Thas is going to cost some major $$. So, we will proceed with small babysteps. Ha. What color is your kitchen?
Well, I think I need to at least go get in the bed & TRY my best to get some sleep. I would like to get out of the bed before 12 tomorrow.
Until next time,