Infertility

I have decided that I want to share this struggle that my husband & I have been dealing with for some time now. It is something that I struggle with every single day. It hurts. I have so many questions & no answers. For a while J & I decided that we were not going to tell anyone about the struggles we were having with infertility. However, as times passes by, it gets easier to talk about & I actually don't mind telling others & sharing about our struggles. I know it is something that many couples struggle with.

J & I started trying to have a baby in Dec of 2011. Yes, it is now July 2013. It has been an extremely hard road so far. We got pregnant last year, but had a really early miscarriage. That was by far the hardest thing ever. We have both had tests done & so far every test has come back with normal results. We don't have an answer yet as to why we can't get pregnant. I have an appointment with a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) this month so hopefully we will get some answers there. We are having to drive 2 hrs just to get to the doctor because he is one of the closest fertility doctors around. I am very excited about the appointment because it means that we are one step closer to getting our baby!

This journey has been so stressful. Not only the fact that we are having trouble getting pregnant, but also the financial aspect of it. My insurance doesn't cover infertility so we are basically having to pay for most everything out of pocket.. meds, tests, ultrasounds, etc. We are very lucky to both have really good jobs! I don't understand why insurance shouldn't have to pay for infertility or at least help with it. Women do not CHOOSE to suffer from it. However, people CHOOSE to smoke which causes multiple heatlth problems that lead to hospital stays, ER visits, disease, etc & the insurance companies help cover it.
But, whatever.

Here lately I have been in better spirits about this process. I know that one day J & I will be parents. Right now is just not the time. God has different plans & when it does happen, it will be perfect timing. I just have to trust & believe.

Please feel free to message or email me if you are struggling with infertility & you need someone to talk to. It is a very hard thing to go through. And honestly, if you haven't ever been through it yourself, you don't quite understand. Sometimes it helps just to let things out & talk about it.