I found Courage

I finally found the courage to post something that changed our lives forever.

Both for the good & bad.

I wrote the original post back in June, however, I am just now posting it to my blog.

You can find it here.

I will warn you, it is very emotional & is something that is very close to my heart.

Decisions

I have never been one to be great at making decisions.
I married my husband & that was a wonderful decision.
I decided to become a nurse, which I feel was the right decision.
However, my career has me stressed right now to say the least.
I have been working weekend nights for one year now.
I work every friday, saturday, & sunday night.
Yes, I work when my husband is off.
I work when our families have get togethers & dinners.
I work when Jason races.
I work basically when "normal" people are at home.
It has its positives & negatives.
I am now stuck trying to figure out the which out weighs the other.
By working on weekends, I'm off monday through thursday every week.
It's very easy to make doctor appointments, hair appointments, etc.
However, I'm home alone at those times.
I have no hobbies.
I get very bored & very lonely.
I find myself sleeping a lot & feel as though I'm in some kind of rut or funk.
Jason makes comments all the time that he wishes I worked during the week so we could go places on the weekends.
He makes statements like, "well if you didn't work every weekedend, we could go to the beach".
I work with such wonderful people that have taught me so so much.
We are close & we work as a team.
I started off my nursing career working week nights.
I hated it.
I didn't hate when I worked, I hated one particular person at work.
She was very hateful & not a very good person to work with.
I was miserable & I really think she was the reason.
Another thing about working during the week is that I won't have a set schedule like I do now.
One week I may work mon, tue, wed...one week I may work mon, wed, thur...etc.
And one week I may work mon, wed, fri.
Thats one of the negatives that I really don't like.
I will also be taking a pay cut.
I make more money for working weekend nights.
About $11 more an hour.
Thats a pretty big deal I think.
I say all this because I am torn.
I don't know what to do.
The lady that I mentioned above that I hated when I worked week nights is now gone.
She no longer works at the hospital.
My husband I think would be more happy with me working week nights so we can be together on the weekends.
I however, have absolutely no idea what to do.
I talked with him tonight while we were in bed & he said that he wanted me to stay on weekends if thats what makes me happy.
But, I want us both to be happy.
We put almost 20,000 miles on our car when I worked during the week.
Since I've been working on the weekends, we have put 5,000 miles on the car.
By the time Jason gets off work during the week, we don't have time to go anywhere.
I wish this were an easy decision.
I know if people are reading this, you really don't give a rip.
I wanted to post this because I want to remember important things in my life.
And this to me is important.
Right now my gut is telling me that I should give week nights a try again.
However, it is 3am & my brain isn't functioning at its best.
I will think on this some more tomorrow & talk with Jason some more about it.

Update

So, I haven't posted in a while.

I know, I'm getting slack.

We are actually finished painting the laundry room & we have yet to start in the kitchen.

We've had a lot going on lately.

Right after Jason started painting, his papa was put in the hospital for a possible stroke.

Thank God it was not & he is home & doing well.

I need to post some pictures of what we have gotten done in the laundry room.

I will try to take some pictures later today.

 

I found 2 rugs for the front porches finally.

I found them at Big Lots for $5 a piece.

I still have to find the stencils though, & get the paint to put on them.

If you are wondering, I plan on doing like Emily did here.

Isn't it cute?

 

I also found 2 little trees to go on either side of the main front door.

I'm currently waiting on the pillows I ordered from Etsy to come in for the front porch also.

 

With my new pillows, wreath, rugs, & plants, my porch should look amazing! haha.

Hopefully so.

 

I plan on taking a picture of my porch before & a picture of my porch after the sprucing up!

I have already posted before pictures of my kitchen & laundry room.

I just need to post some pictures of what we have gotten done.

 

Jason & I went to vote today.

So glad we went ahead & got that over with.

I can't wait to find out the results of who our next president is going to be.

I know who I want it to be, but I am one who keeps my political opinions to myself.

 

Well, thats all for now. I need to get started on some laundry & cleaning.

It's back to work for me tomorrow night. 

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to my wonderful hubby!

He is the best!

I fall more & more in love with him every single day!

 

 

I LOVE YOU =)



Day of Silence

 

Please join me in a media silence day to honor the life of Matt Turner.

My heart is so heavy today for his family, especially for his wife Julee & daughter Preslee.

I don't know Julee personally. Only through reading her blog.

I can not imagine the pain.

Please join me in prayer for this fmaily.

Psalm 34:18The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.

 



Friday

It is 12:28am.

Yes, I should be in bed.

However, I was suppose to work tonight, but I got put on call.

Therefore, I am wide awake because I slept until 2pm today.

 

Anyways, Jason painted some more in the kitchen today & started working on the cabinets.

While he was painting, I cleaned out the cabinets & wiped them down.

Yes, I know I'm going to have to do the same thing when we get finished.

I just didn't want anyone to come over to the house & our cabinet doors be off & they think we're nasty people because of how awful the inside of our cabinets look!

They were horrible!

 

We went to Lowes before getting supper tonight so we could pick out a light fixture for the kitchen & also so we could pick out new hardware for the cabinets.

Lowes is awesome.

Its funny how Lowes use to be the most boring store to go in.

Or so I thought growing up.

However, now that I have a house of my own, I love that store!

You can get so many great ideas there.

I know my hubby hates taking me there with him.

LOL. I come up with more projects every time I enter the doors!

 

I really hope work doesn't call me anytime soon to come in to work.

They have been known to call at 1:30am.

Yes, annoying.

I can't complain though, at least I have a job.

A very rewarding job at that.

I get to help save lives every weekend.

Peoples lives are in my hands.

It feels pretty great.

 

I think I'm going to head to bed & hopefully get some sleep.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

I probably won't be blogging again until Monday or Tuesday.



Day #1 Kitchen

Well, Jason started painting the kitchen tonight!

YAY =)

I was so excited!

I love the color so far & he has just started!

 

First I'm going to post some before pics.

Then I will post some pics I took tonight.

 

 

BEFORE PICTURES:

 

 

 

PICTURES FROM PAINT DAY #1:

 

I'm liking it so far! Hope I continue to! We still have a TON of work to do!

But, for now, I'm heading to bed.

I have to work all weekend while hubby is at home doing Project Kitchen!

Hope everyone has a fabulous weekend!

I will be posting some more updates in the next few weeks!